Tuesday, January 27, 2009

so how do i get them to learn to take advice? I try so hard to show them the easy way and they dont grab on. Shey failed 2 classes so she only got 2 credits this 1/2 of the year. Lucas, the same....it is so hard to see your child fail at something just because they are too lazy. All they care about is the video games, or the phone and iPod. It makes me feel like I am failing them. What do I do?? Where do I go from here? How do i show htem that they really are hurting themsleves. They are putting their future at stake. I know kids dont look into the future. Well not all kids. But I just dont know what else to do. I need advice myself. I feel that i need help.

Monday, January 19, 2009

I am just a mom, a real lonely one. Every time I try to be one, I am shut down. I have no say over my kids they just do whatever they want to and i know thats my own fault. I just dont know how to change it. I ask for something to be done and it might...might get done when they are good and ready. I ask for a certain bedtime, even just a round about one, and I am intruding. I sat down tonight and was shunned, "i am not gonna sit here and get watched like a little kid" I always feel like the black sheep. I could leave here and only mark would care. It really sucks. I am only good if I am doind something for them, other than that I might as well stay in my room like an outcast. Thats how I feel. I have been sitting here since 9:00 last night and no one talked to me then, I wake up at 3:00 am and tell them its alittle too late and I got crap back. I am used to it though......I just sit in silence and let them basically do what they want. See it's my own fault. :(