October 8

Okay I am gonna try to do this everyday, but dont mark my words. Today i am really frustrated, I try to help my kids and they just think I am a nuisence. God that frustrates me. When do they understand that you are only trying to help?? I was just telling Emily about her nasonex, and she just has to throw a fit and say "I'm not gonna do that" After I make sure that she has her prescriptions and everything to help her get better..all I want is for her to be healthy this winter. So I threw it across the counter.
Then I check Lucas' Infinite Campus to make sure that he is doing his work and turning it in. Not that he has the best record of keeping track of his stuff. Responsibility is something we still need to work on. I asked him if he will be passing by report card time. Because as of now he is failing all of his classes. Yes all 4...his highest grade is a 67. And what does he say, "I dont want to come home to this, I wanted to have a good night." Well ya know what?? So did I...
I try to talk to Mark about him being tired all the time. But I am a pain, and all it is, is a complaint. I just want to see my husband, to talk, to laugh. Maybe sit together and chat. But no, when he gets up he is too tired, so he sits in the recliner and then eats dinner and then is still tired so he takes a nap in the chair and waked up when it is time to go to work. So none of us gets to have us time. It sucks, and when I do try to say something, he says "I dont sleep all the time. You act like that is all I do." "I dont take a nap everyday"
So I figured with my memory I would just keep this journal and talk about all my frustrations here because I have no one else to talk to. I will go now and drink my bottle of Pinot Grigio. Hopefully the night will go better.